Happiness Is…

Me And My Man
Originally uploaded by Mac Girl

Many, many years ago my mother passed away suddenly over Valentine’s Day weekend. I’ve actively ignored the holiday ever since. Yes, it’s been a long time, but the events of that week still cast a shadow on my life lo these many 17 or so years later. The shadow has faded some, but it’s still very real.

This year The Man and I are struggling with a lot of challenges – most of them byproducts of our combined layoff in October. I did and still do firmly believe that the change was for the better — I’ve never seen him so content with a job as he is with his new one, and I have been given the opportunity to be truly selective in my career choices going forward. I can be PROactive this time, instead of REactive as I was the last time my work situation changed. I can and will make better choices.ย  But the challenges remain.

Yep, we still have those pesky challenges, and they’re big ones. There’s been a lot of struggle and stress on our marriage over the last few months, and we’ve made it so far, but…

We needed a Valentine’s Day celebration this year.

NEEDED.

So I woke him up this morning with a kiss, a box of chocolates, and a card that told him exactly how I feel about him, and tonight he’s taking me for dinner and a movie.

To hell with the bills.

To hell with the terrible question mark hanging over our future.

I’ve got him and he’s got me.

All is right with the world.

The Man, Exposed


Flasher
Originally uploaded by Mac Girl.

Photography is a numbers game. No matter what your level of so-called talent, if you take enough photos you will eventually have at least a few that are presentable, if not absolutely wonderful for one reason or another.

The Man has been outfitting his kit all summer and last weekend he got the final piece (for now!) – a Canon Speedlight 430EX. Tonight we sat down in our living room and messed around with camera settings and flash angles until the batteries were almost dead.

I wonder what the neighbors thought….

This is my favorite shot of the day. Our livingroom is darkish and we only had a small table lamp on. At one point I forgot that I’d turned off my flash and I hit the shutter release. Just before the shutter finally closed again he set off his flash purely by chance. The result, a great portrait – one of my favorites already – of my husband.

Some people say that you should leave nothing to chance. I believe that if you live this way you will be successful in many things, but you’ll also miss a lot of happy accidents.

Welcome To The Matrix


Welcome To The Matrix
Originally uploaded by Mac Girl.

Yeah, I’m not around much. As usual I’ve been busy. We’re getting up at 4:30am and hitting the gym before work now, which means that we go to bed earlier than before. By the time we get home from work, make dinner, and do the days business (pay bills, do laundry, whatever) I’m literally too tired to do much of anything else but check my email and go to bed.

This is a shot of D’s sister, Mari. She has never owned a computer in her life, and as I understand it she uses a regular terminal at work, not a PC. I was shocked last Fall when she told us that she was thinking about getting a computer. We convinced her to get a laptop so that she can take it along when she travels, and last weekend she finally decided that it was time to shop.

I have to say, for someone who has effectively never used a computer before, she caught on very quickly and will be a power user before we know it. Great job, Mari! ๐Ÿ™‚

In other news I’ve fulfilled one of my new years resolutions. Unfortunately is was the one that I forgot to post here. Duh. So yeah, I stopped biting my nails over New Years weekend an they’re quite nice now. They’re not long, and they’ll never be dagger-style nails (those creep me out!) but they’re long enough to open a can of Coke with no effort, or give a really good back scratch. I’m quite happy with them the way they are now and I’m going to maintain them this way.

A friend convinced me to get a manicure this week before I bite or break one of my newly glorious nails, and I have to say that I really love having my nails done! Not only was the experience of getting them done nice, but having them polished for literally the first time since about high school is very gratifying. It gives me a bit of a confidence boost and makes me feel attractive. That’s a rare thing to experience for me.

Now if I could just fulfill the rest of my resolutions… ๐Ÿ™‚